one of my obsession?

maybe i'm a hopeless romantic. well actually if you ask me in person i would say NO I'M NOT. i don't believe in happy endings. so to counter it by watching tolerable movies and tv series. In scanning channel i encounter the series that I almost not miss as of this moments. that is gossip girl. 

at first i just curious like anybody else and that time almost all the leads don't have NAMES (they say there c-celeb).

lets get straight to the point. I'm starting to hate this series. because they lost the point of the story. in what season? i just in season 2. Basically i love the best friend which is very different individual but they click. they fight bu in the end of the day they comfort and protect each other. I do appreciate their love story. but also i have favorites. but as season goes why their relationship drifted. i know one change if it a challenge in their relationship i starting to lose interest because as per episode it always end that way. especially at season finale.

my first argument is their love life. why it has to been torn between to lovers and conflict with both feelings. 

it kind they lost their identity. if makes a person a better person and became matured. i'm not getting getting the point of the writer. 

so as of now i'll will not watch this. i just read reviews and there i base if i"m will watch again.

Gossip Girl Blast: What's Wrong With Season Five

knowing me know me

knowing me? if the situation tell you to act. why you standing there. like a big dumb. if people don't like you you cant confuse them always that you're action is not intended to be so.  you can't please everyone. the only enemy you have is yourself. if cant cheat whatever you like but in the end you're going to lose.
satisfaction and contentment is the key. people can instruct you what you can do and capable. if your effect is the challenge. if they can accept you. then you can't accept them back.

in the days....

It the days of the year that mind and body so busy. It the day that need to believe to be thankful for existence.
But before it come to this point lots of this happened and it will consider you grow up. But in the end of the day, you will discover that nothing cause. You still standing in the exact place year before.
If you think you move you wish. You move an inch only. But serously you are lucky to move an inch because others dont mve can't move a bit.
So be thankful for the inch. but not be grateful unless you exert effort for move again. Changes, that's the priority.
Not be stuck up.
How to going to happen first have a goal have a dream and pray. He will give you guidance and will lead the way.
Putting lots into perspective. You still breathing. What is existing to is to look forward.
If we know what lies ahead. Maybe I consider what are decisions and action are.

C

If I have ever a feeling for you. That would be I'm out of my mind. Or I'm really a crazy one. Lots of things had come to our way. But come to think about it. I can't mention a thing. We drifted apart. We walk away. Wait, it only me you walk away. A something a definition that i cant utter what am I
wait you also. I'm halucinating something like that. You do apppreate me. But being me and being you. This happened.
Maybe if we cross path. Maybe. Maybe I say hi or hello. What you think. Will I going to approach you? I guest NO.
I analyze because every action. it not funny. to think that way but it embarasing. what am i think to think that way. I definitely put the line. Am i desperate maybe yes.
In the end. its the end. you happy with her. But sderiously I'm happy for you. Do i wish someone like you. Today NO.
Maybe I like the idea to have a relationship. But staying to the relationship is another story. Maybe I like to attention. The appreciation. But I think I not appreacited. You never appreciate me. Someone appreciate me. But again he belong to someone else. I misunderstood all the attention. It's all you fault. Your are such a flirt. Why I fall for it.
I should not fall for it. I let it be. So now where am I. I'm sore loser.
But I know I will just laugh at all of this. I will just appreciate it happens.
So as of now. this is the status....C

RESPONSIBILITY 2

If things go wrong...
Doing things is way different to act like a matured individual. Given a task and opportunity is an optional to faced the world with a straight face.
Facing a reality is like a slap in your face. It hits hard and big time. And you will find out that you are not in the right mind.
If you can turn the hands of time...But you have no choice...And the sad part is you affected lots of lives. And most especially you.

Hope you find yourself. In the jungle called life.

dont lose hope

Don't lose hope. I've been telling to myself this word. over and over but still it can't cheer myself up. I tried almost everything do crazy things said nasty things that beyond my daily languages eat foods that I'm craving. Hard to admit but i'm still staggering to find where I should fit.
Why life is so unfair. Things happens for a reason and i just to weak to face it. I better run than to face it. People telling me i"m go for it or just easy going but in front of me. I back out hide.

Jealous

Jealous. you did choose me. So why you still here. to see me how i suffer. to see me how miserable am I.
You dont know the feeling. I admit to you how I feel and then give me hope and then you choose the one that just pass by.
Im not really good enough. How I soory for my self. being stupid sometimes a good thing.
but it better no one around. to offer their sympathy. All of this years there a wall to protect me but when i put it down this
what I get. nothing. oh wait there is. pain. or maybe I choose pain. I know that this the ending of my
patience. gain nothing. hoping for nothing. but look to the bright side. I meet you.