good things comes to an end

Good things comes to an end. Although been more than a month to be exact 6 weeks. Exhausting, stress, unpleasant feeling, unsettled lots things to describe the feeling. But what important things I learned. I experienced.
The experience expect something and I get it. Although something along with it. Especially dealing other people. Although I question myself my character I learned it hard to admit I weak. I'm a weakling. One of the quality that I really until now haven't develop to be a dependable and mature person.
If one told you. They fell that youre position is they can do better. That hits me bad. Why I'm a hearing this. Why of all people you telling me this.

I will all miss of that. The freedom that I get. Back to reality.

RESPONSIBILTY

RESPONSIBILTY. What a big word. A word that will destroy everyone that don’t know how to handle this word. If there a thing that a human being will encounter in their life and will challenge every one of us. Having a word in our daily life will eventually face our own demon.  A word that can destroy or mould you. A word that in the ending well there’s no ending. When you face it today expect it will present tomorrow or at the least you expected. 

Faith

In a position or situation where there lots of question than answer. And feeling you have not enough time to do things you supposed to do.
Being in a position of almost a month now. Having or doing a task that you don't know what are the criteria. Why you in there. Because as far as you can see or think of it a part of a joke. Or just nothing. They just feel you should take or do the task.
Being in that position it make me feel inferior the lowest level that I can think of or feel. Although it a privilege or honor to be there. But there was always back in my mind. the DOUBTS lots of this. Do  I question myself? very much most of the time. Not that I don't a faith in myself but when in comes in big decision that will cause my life especially my career. I don't faith in my decision. in my judgement call.

Ask

life. living i supposed to be fun but it feels the other way around. contentment is also another thing...