Don't lose hope. I've been telling to myself this word. over and over but still it can't cheer myself up. I tried almost everything do crazy things said nasty things that beyond my daily languages eat foods that I'm craving. Hard to admit but i'm still staggering to find where I should fit.
Why life is so unfair. Things happens for a reason and i just to weak to face it. I better run than to face it. People telling me i"m go for it or just easy going but in front of me. I back out hide.
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Jealous
Jealous. you did choose me. So why you still here. to see me how i suffer. to see me how miserable am I.
You dont know the feeling. I admit to you how I feel and then give me hope and then you choose the one that just pass by.
Im not really good enough. How I soory for my self. being stupid sometimes a good thing.
but it better no one around. to offer their sympathy. All of this years there a wall to protect me but when i put it down this
what I get. nothing. oh wait there is. pain. or maybe I choose pain. I know that this the ending of my
patience. gain nothing. hoping for nothing. but look to the bright side. I meet you.
You dont know the feeling. I admit to you how I feel and then give me hope and then you choose the one that just pass by.
Im not really good enough. How I soory for my self. being stupid sometimes a good thing.
but it better no one around. to offer their sympathy. All of this years there a wall to protect me but when i put it down this
what I get. nothing. oh wait there is. pain. or maybe I choose pain. I know that this the ending of my
patience. gain nothing. hoping for nothing. but look to the bright side. I meet you.
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Im going....
Im going get married.
Ah. So... gasp.
Ok. Do you have a date?
None.
Never intended to be in a situation. that backfire me. But in the ending I will have nothing.
I'm a loser. but what are you thinking. you chose your situation. you decide that this set up
you should be into. A feeling. when did come up. You have a feeling but did you think before you
are. You know that in the ending. this will be happening. Never be married. Just a single till the end.
You're the one to come up to him and ask him. And flirt. And when things going to what you expected grab
the opportunity. And it happened. Although you told him your intention. and he oblige to do his part.
But don't you think. He is a man, so what you supposed to expect. Be a man.
Cont...
Ah. So... gasp.
Ok. Do you have a date?
None.
Never intended to be in a situation. that backfire me. But in the ending I will have nothing.
I'm a loser. but what are you thinking. you chose your situation. you decide that this set up
you should be into. A feeling. when did come up. You have a feeling but did you think before you
are. You know that in the ending. this will be happening. Never be married. Just a single till the end.
You're the one to come up to him and ask him. And flirt. And when things going to what you expected grab
the opportunity. And it happened. Although you told him your intention. and he oblige to do his part.
But don't you think. He is a man, so what you supposed to expect. Be a man.
Cont...
Im going....
Im going get married.
Ah. So... gasp.
Ok. Do you have a date?
None.
Never intended to be in a situation. that backfire me. But in the ending I will have nothing.
I'm a loser. but what are you thinking. you chose your situation. you decide that this set up
you should be into. A feeling. when did come up. You have a feeling but did you think before you
are. You know that in the ending. this will be happening. Never be married. Just a single till the end.
You're the one to come up to him and ask him. And flirt. And when things going to what you expected grab
the opportunity. And it happened. Although you told him your intention. and he oblige to do his part.
But don't you think. He is a man, so what you supposed to expect. Be a man.
Cont...
Ah. So... gasp.
Ok. Do you have a date?
None.
Never intended to be in a situation. that backfire me. But in the ending I will have nothing.
I'm a loser. but what are you thinking. you chose your situation. you decide that this set up
you should be into. A feeling. when did come up. You have a feeling but did you think before you
are. You know that in the ending. this will be happening. Never be married. Just a single till the end.
You're the one to come up to him and ask him. And flirt. And when things going to what you expected grab
the opportunity. And it happened. Although you told him your intention. and he oblige to do his part.
But don't you think. He is a man, so what you supposed to expect. Be a man.
Cont...
Thursday, May 19, 2011
face lift
face lift? if i want it. definitely i should try it. maybe it can boost my morale as of now. feeling at this state of myself. makes me confuse to no end. if only face lift can do all the work. or any damage that i can't detect. maybe i need it. not that i dont have self confidence or anything on that matter. i have at least that all i can say. being in this state where i belong to the statistics of NBSB. it sucks something especially when your entering to another year. another chapter that sometimes your not looking forward to. what you thinking. as long as your are breathing you should live. live as if no tommorow. as if its the end. but most of the time it is your end. no directon. no purpose. but you know thier is.
worse thing is maybe you are supposed to a nun. servant of God what you think....
worse thing is maybe you are supposed to a nun. servant of God what you think....
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